I'll forewarn you that this post may get cut off mid-thought as I'm babysitting and the parents will be home anytime from now until the next 30 minutes. Anyway, today's been interesting...
I had a hard day emotionally and mentally yesterday due to the fragile state of my close friend. He's going thru an incredibly hard time in his life and has been for a while. Unbelievably, things have gotten harder for him than they were before (which I thought was close to impossible). Just goes to show that there is always something to be thankful for.
So, he wouldn't talk to me, then hung up on me after I thought he's agreed to talk. He said some hurtful things like "I wasn't his friend". Sadly, he was right. When he told me he got a message from an old friend that wasn't very warm, I made the insensitive comment "Maybe it's because you've been kinda shady and haven't always followed thru on your word". I proceeded to say "I'm sure he'll warm up again after you get back into the swing of things"...but I don't think he heard that part because he had already hung up.
Honestly, I didn't feel bad about what I said at first- I felt angry I'd been cut off and justified in my thinking. I had to pray thru that a lot. I just gave it to God, telling Him I couldn't handle this myself and to please take care of my friend and help me get some sleep without worrying about it.
Praise God I did! I woke up feeling pretty good today.
I relaxed with some tv, and a pretty sweet breaky of an omelet, toast and coffee. Then Mum and I decided to go to this huge farmers market here in Charlotte that my coworker had told me about. It was a lot of fun. We got some beautiful thai basil, cilantro, baby spinach, jalapenos, bean sprouts, tomatoes, baby kale, baby bok choy, radishes, and the biggest spring onions you've ever seen! Oh yeah, and apples, plums, grass-fed beef, and free-range, antibiotic free brown eggs. GOODNESS :)
So that was fun and we went out for lunch at Chipotle on South Blvd, after driving around uptown a little for a change.
I put my feet up for an hour before I had to get ready to come here. I am so thankful for work tonight. I really need the money, but it does so much more for my spirits to come here to a family I've worked with for 5 1/2 years, who love me, in whose home I feel very comfortable, and I feel needed. I guess I need that.
While I've been here, though, I got even worse news from my friend who decided to talk to me finally- he is being evicted. It's not been a great situation for a while and we've talked about moving on, but it sucks for it to end this way. I'm really proud of him for the way he's handling it, though- he's being really mature about it and not freaking out. He's just believing this door is closing for a reason and something better is around the corner. Still, I've got a lot of praying to do for this situation.
It affects me a lot. I used to live there and I still visit him often. Half the furniture and ALL the kitchen utensils etc are mine. So, yeah- lots to figure out.
Until later...
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